loser, (a social) failure, also-ran

person

fail / make a mistake

failure, miscarriage / mistake, fault, error

oneself / first-person pronoun: I, me (often shows the speaker's lower position in a hierarchy than the addressee) / (Kansai) you

distal demonstrative, something far off removed from both speaker and listener: that, yon / particularly, male personal third person pronoun: he / by extension from he: boyfriend

he; boyfriend

he / distal demonstrative, something far off removed from both speaker and listener: that / boyfriend

(と〜) thinking that […] (with the next clause explaining that the truth is contrary to expectations)

to seem, to appear